It truly has been a bit of a shitty year so far.

Even ignoring all four deaths there has been enough bad news to last a life time and it never seems to end, even today more bad news comes and even though she tries to put a brave face on things my mother really isn't coping. I can tell from the crack in her voice as she talks. Father has said he cannot go to the hospital anymore as coming out upsets him. This has been going on since January with a friend of theirs. Even though he says he can't go he still does. Every week. What is going to hurt them both even more is that when this friend dies, which could happen any moment, it'll be on the news and my mother will have to watch it. Not because the television is broke and stuck on and on one channel but because she'll feel as though she has to. She'll read any newspaper clipping and she'll cut them out and save them. She has a secret box which we all no one knows about with certain items in it. Clippings will end up in there and once the funeral is over she'll never look in it again until the next time something sad happens and even then it'll only be opened to put more things in, never to take things out and never to have anything read.

I can't grieve anymore as there is no part of me left that has anything left to give. I cannot go into mourning and to be honest the mood I'm getting in to over all this means I'd refuse to anyway.

Instead I'm being positive about things.

To this end I'm offering you all a gift. The gift of music. A while back Brad did a post where he asked people to send him cd's of music that they liked to try and introduce him to some new artistes and music and he got some wonderful replies. I'm offering you the exact opposite.

I'm going to create a CD of music I like and would like to send you out a copy. To do this you'll have to give me your name and address. Email me at iwouldlikeacdplease@gmail.com with your name and address and I'll post you a CD of music. Don't panic, it won't be angry stuff, it will be a myriad of various musical tastes.

After it's been done and sent out I'll be writing a post about it here so you can listen and read along and see why I've picked those songs. There will be a lovely cover design by me which I've no doubt will be reminiscent of when I used to host a radio show. You'll understand that when you see the CD.

So if you'd like one... it's free... all you need to do is email me at iwouldlikeacdplease@gmail.com.