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by LandersUK @ 2008-06-17 – 11:11:49

I've woken up in bad mood and it's just getting worse.

Considering I have to with vulnerable adults this cannot be good. Actually after everything that went on with the one lad (the attack that lead to shirt ripping) I've discovered that when I get attacked by people who can't help it and don't mean it against me I back away and don't retaliate in any way other than a raised voice telling him to calm down. In any other situation I'd bite back!

Man, I'm fed up of feeling like this. One minute I'm quite up beat and I know how things are going to go, the next minute I don't know which way is up or what I'm supposed to do next.

At the moment I'm having thoughts I don't want to have and I don't know how to get rid of them. When I try to get rid of these thoughts and feelings I start to justify them and that makes them bigger which them makes me feel worse and more guilty! Horrible never ending circle!

Bollocks!
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- Old-Nick ^Pro
- 2008-06-17 @ 11:15:57
You may not want to have these thoughts, but your having them. So they are there for a reason.

Have a big hug, I may even let you cop a feel.

x
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- rowtheboat
- http://rowtheboat.blog.co.uk/
- 2008-06-17 @ 11:24:35
You're a star.

S'there.

xx
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- boredrich
- 2008-06-17 @ 11:30:27
That cant be an easy job no matter what kinda mood you are in but I can understand it must be even worse with you feeling like this How you dont retaliate I will never know you must have the patience of a saint.
Take it easy mate.
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- deleted user (Visitor)
- http://menomamauk.blog.co.uk
- 2008-06-17 @ 12:02:44
(((hugs)))
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- Rampage ^team
- 2008-06-17 @ 12:12:45
Need more Berlin chocolate? It could be with you in three to five days. I could throw the döner in as an experiment too.

*big hung*
- - Rampage ^team
  - 2008-06-17 @ 12:13:31
  Damn it, did I just write *big hung* instead of *big hug*?
  
  *shuffles off, embarrassed*
  - - scoobydoofus ^Pro
    - 2008-06-17 @ 15:37:32
    Talk about a Freudian slip!
    
    *stomach growling in memory of döners past*
    - - Rampage ^team
      - 2008-06-18 @ 13:09:28
      Hey, I've got fat unresponsive fingers which leads to frequent typos!
      
      Maybe I should lay off the döner then...
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- PurpleDragon
- 2008-06-17 @ 21:09:44
What work do you do?
My sister is in care, and I don't know how her carers don't shove her under a train, sometimes. Mind you, I've felt like shoving her under a train since I could walk, so that probably accounts for it.
- - LandersUK
  - http://www.iamlanders.com
  - 2008-06-17 @ 21:53:10
  I work in a secure unit for people with challenging behaviour although it's not all that secure but the behaviour is very challenging!
  - - PurpleDragon
    - 2008-06-18 @ 15:32:28
    Many years ago, I was accepted to do mental health nursing, but I had to refuse, because part of the interview took us round the place, and the secure unit freaked me out. I just couldn't bear that amount of misery all in one place. You've either got it or you haven't - I haven't. You, my friend, obviously have. Well done you!
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  - - PurpleDragon
    - 2008-06-18 @ 15:35:14
    I was accepted for mental health nurse training and refused because the secure unit there freaked me out. Too much misery in one place. I couldn't handle it.
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- lyndlj
- 2008-06-18 @ 08:52:07
You love your work, it is a substitute for the fostering which you loved.

We all have thoughts like that from time to time, we would not be human if we didn't.

XXXxxxx
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